Week 7

Anyone who knows me, knows I completely dislike being pregnant. I more than dislike it. If i could have someone else carry my baby for 9 months, I would be content. Sounds terrible, i know. I am just being honest. Some people love it. NOPE. Never....

I am trying to enjoy it because it is my last but I am just not!!! Not at all. Last week, I spent worrying because I was bleeding. This week, I cannot even stand up. My back hurts so bad. I can't, for the life of me figure it out. I am not carrying extra weight yet. I have been reading that your hormones can cause back pain. WTF, it is absolutely horrible. I look completely crippled.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH. On a good note, my sonogram came back "normal" and my hcg levels are 46,273 which is great.

Stress

Ok, so this baby is starting to give me trouble earlier than Sophia. It must be a boy

Tuesday, was having some more bleeding. I figured I better give them a call. I did and they scheduled me to come into the office. I saw Dr. Philapkosky on Wednesday. She immediately told me bleeding for 2 weeks was definately not normal. She said it could either be an ectopic pregnancy or it is possible that my body formed antibodies due to being A- when I delivered Sophia. She said regardless, I need another dose of rhogam. She scheduled me for an emergency sonogram and some bloodwork. I got the sonogram. Everything, according to the tech, looked fine. There was a heartbeat although they couldn't judge how fast. I got to see the little bean and even got his/her first picture.

I am still waiting for a phone call about the labs. Keeping my fingers crossed.

On another note, Sophia did great in pre-school today. She walked in like a champ. She wanted to cry but held off.

Sophie's day in her new class

Well, it started out rocky. Not a good morning for mommy either. She started crying from the minute she got up. I kept explaining to her that she was in a big girl class now and that she does not have to see mean Miss Phyllis anymore. We got there and she was hysterical. Charlene (the owner) met me at the door and we went into her new room. Miss Evelyn (one of her teachers) tried to get her to sit down but she clung to me. I sat down with her in a little seat and stayed with her for a good 1/2 hour. Those women are so nice. We couldn't get her to stop crying so I figured I just had to walk out. They took her from me and she was SCREAMING at the top of her lungs. She was grabbing for me. I lost it and ran out. I called when I got to work. Charlene told me that I wasn't even to my car and she stopped. She was doing great. I called around 11:00 and Evelynn told me that she wishes I could see her now. It was not the image I have in my head of my screaming little girl. She said she was playing and interacting with the kids.
Chad picked her up today. I just got off the phone with him. He said when he picked her up, she ran over, gave him a hug and went back to what she was doing. He talked to her teachers and they said she did great. Wheew... Well, she doesn't have to go back until Tuesday and I am sure she will cry all over again. Guess it will take a while.
On another note, i am still having some cramping with a little bit of bleeding. I also have a dull ache in my left side. I called the doc and one of the docs are supposed to call me back. We will see

What a day

I have had one of the worst days today. I took Sophia to school this morning. From the time she woke up and learned she was going to school, she cried. She was hysterical by the time I got her there. I asked her what was wrong and she said her teacher yells at her. When we got there, I asked the teacher if she is ok. She told me that she is fine after I leave. She told me alot of kids go through this at first and the best thing I can do is just drop her off and leave. Whatever... I left.

I cried literally the whole way to work. This was really working on me so I called and asked to speak to Charlene (the owner). I talked with Cindy first and explained my situation. I told her that I felt that Sophia should not be in the 3 year old class. I noticed that there are alot of kids way younger than her and that the teacher yelled at these kids probably 10 times in the 5 short minutes I was there. Cindy explained that some of the kids are pretty bad and that the teacher needs to yell at them. I understand that, but I explained that Sophia is pretty smart and i don't feel she is benefiting being with 1. younger kids 2. kids that need so much discipline. Sophie is very sensitive and when the teacher yells, she thinks she is yelling at her.

Charlene got on the phone and agreed with me that she should be moved. I agreed to switch around my schedule so that she can be there on Tuesdays and Thursdays which is their less busy day.. All was good.

Charlene called me back at 10:30. She had Sophia in her office and she was hysterical. She said she came back from the playground in tears. She said she keeps hugging her and trying to show her around her new room. She was bawling. I talked to her on the phone and it was horrible. I told Charlene I would send Charlotte to pick her up now. As we talked, Sophie seemed to calm down a bit. I told her I would leave her there until 1:00. We hung up

At 11:45, Charlene called me back again. I could have cried when I saw the caller ID. She wanted to assure me that Sophia was completely fine. She was playing with the other kids, actually ate lunch and is doing great. She feels this is really going to work out better for her.

Charlotte called me at 1:30 after she picked her up. She said she is great. When she picked her up this time, she ran to her, gave her a hug, but DIDN'T cry. She went back to what she was doing and then was ready to leave. I spoke with her on the phone and she was in a silly mood.

Now, if I can just get her back there tomorrow!!

On another note, I took her to Living Treasures yesterday for a mother-daughter day. We had a really nice time, that is, until I got spit on by a llama. Not cool. It smelled like rotten cow shit. It was the worst smell ever and he spit it all over my face!!!

Remind me to never touch a Llama again, especially one with an attitude

Week 5

Here, I guess this is the start of week 5 of my pregnancy. Not sure how to judge it because I know EXACTLY when I got pregnant (August 23rd) but they judge it from your last period (August 11th) so I will just go with that.

I had some mild cramping yesterday with a little bit of a pink discharge. I was a little worried but the more I read, the more this seems normal.

My dad is still in the hospital. He is in a different unit where he is receiving PT. He is mad at my mom. He thinks she is keeping him there. He is a little out of his mind and driving everyone crazy

Sophie's First Day of Pre-School

Her first day of Pre-School was Wednesday, September 10, 2008. I, of course, had to take the day off so I could drop her off and pick her up. I was way more nervous than she was. We walked in, hung up her bookbag and she stepped into the lunchroom. The teacher sat her by another little girl and asked her if she wanted juice. She shook her head yes and I lost it. I walked out and cried. They made me leave because they didn't want her to see me cry.

I cried for an hour. I couldn't wait for 1:00. When i picked her up, she was sitting in a little circle reading with the kids. When she saw me, she came running, jumped into my arms crying. It was heartwrenching. The teacher said she had a good day so she didn't know why she was crying.

Today, Friday the 12th was her second day. She didn't seem quite as excited to go and when we walked in and I bent down to kiss her goodbye, she started crying and clung to me. It took me 5 minutes to calm her down. I finally left and cried the whole way to work.

I think this is going to be a little harder than we thought

The best surprises in life

This blogging crap makes me nuts.

I typed out a huge blog and it zapped on me.

Basically, I talked about my vacation. It was wonderful. We went to OC MD. We rented a condo at the Sea Watch (Room 205) Mike, Nicole, Colton and Riley went with us. It was a blast. We had a great week. The weather was perfect.

During the week, I was a little sick to my stomach. I had been on an antibiotic because of a nasty sinus infection I had all summer. I just figured it was the antibiotic. Then, while on the boardwalk, I had a bit of a nervous breakdown when Riley and Sophia wouldn’t listen to me. I pulled Sophia aside and screamed at her while a ton of people eyeballed me like I was the worst mother in the world. I lost it. I started crying and cried the whole way back to the condo.
The whole time, Mike kept telling me I was pregnant. I told him he was nuts. Quite a few times through the vacation, he kept saying “Karen’s pregnant”.

Back on August 23rd, my cousin Michael got married. After the wedding, we had some fun and we were not exactly careful. We actually discussed it and I told him that if we did it and I got pregnant, then it was meant to be. I didn’t think I was ovulating at the time so thought it was a moot point. Needless to say, we did.

When we got back from the beach, on September 6th, my period was due on Sunday… Sunday came and went.. Nothing. Monday, nothing. Nicole kept telling me to take a test.

Tuesday, the curiosity got the best of me. I bought a test at lunch time. Annoyed that I probably just wasted $10.00, I took it. I figured I would just watch it because I figured it was negative. I watched the negative line go across to the results window, then I saw a faint line coming down to the middle to make a perfect little plus sign!!

I was floored. I called Chad in total shock. He was shocked but happy.

So here we are. I know for a fact our baby was conceived on August 23rd and I am apx. 4 weeks pregnant!! YIPPY . Looks like we are adding on to the Gonofsky Family!! Let’s just pray there is only one in there LOL